VertoramaI have been doing HDR landscapes for years.  I have become inundated with 1’s and 0’s standing waste high in brackets that I have yet to process.  I feel I have triumphed pretty well in the landscape industry and am very satisfied with my photos.

Now the move…

I am curious about doing more portrait work and extending my business into the portrait market.  I love newborn photos, I have a soft spot for those.  I am not too fond of the idea of weddings, but I like the intimate portrait sessions for engagement photos and even maternity sessions.

The boudoir stuff is alright, but I think I would get looked at like

a weirdo by most women if I offered that, I don’t want to be classified as a perv, so I’ll stay away from that, even though I would know it is an art form.  See even trying to justify your case, it still looks a bit perv-ish.  There is no shovel large enough to dig me out of this one…



Regardless, I would really like to get into the HDR Backgrounds with portraits in the foreground.  I have done several of them for myself and my family, but now I want to extend that into my business.  However, I have one huge problem that I need your help with.


The problem is not with my gear, I have three 600 EX-RT Speedlites and an ST-E3-RT droid to command them.  I recently purchased a 24″ x 24″ Soft Box, 26″ Octabox with beauty dish, and a very large 60″ Octabox.  I have several reflectors and continuous lighting setups and MANY stands for all the gear.  I just recently bought several fabrics and baskets for the arrival of my new baby (my first real client).  

So what is my problem?

I am a very, I mean VERY, timid photographer.  I like to take my time, very methodically with my landscapes, I study the scene, take my shots and move on.  If there are other photographers there, I tend to shy away from even using my camera.  I do not take my camera to family or social events, because I don’t want to seem rude or invasive.

I find it difficult to even operate my camera when there is another person on the other end, I have written books about the camera for crying out loud.  So I am asking you some questions for guidance.  I give out a ton of free insight and advice here on EverydayHDR, but this is one topic I struggle with and could use some help with.

  • So why is it so difficult?  
  • Why do I frequently break out in hot flashes when I am photographing someone?
  • Do I have a psychological condition?
  • Is this something I can recover from?  Because I just spent a lot of money on portrait gear if not 🙂

Thanks in advance for the help, I really do need it!  I would like to try and get this resolved within the next 2 weeks, my new client (second child) will be here and I really don’t want to let them down!


Blake Rudis
f.64 Academy and f.64 Elite are the brainchildren of Blake Rudis. While he is a landscape photographer, he is most passionate about post-processing images in Photoshop and mentoring others.

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